Thursday, September 17, 2009

Life Footprint

Knowing people you know leaving this world makes you start to appreciate everyone beside you and everything you have. the question is will your lost be felt and missed by the souls you've crossed path or will you go completely unrealized and forgotten. think again what have you done lately to make the people around you more happy or sad, either way, your existence had set a footprint on their souls.

Friday, June 12, 2009

Riddles for Men

Something to share from an email i received. Enjoy!

Go on, have a good laugh.........

GOOD MORNING & CHEERS


Q: What's the difference between cricketers and condoms?
A: Cricketers drop the catches and condoms catch the drops.

Q: What s the difference between riding a bicycle and a woman?
A: Riding a bicycle you fix your ass & move your legs, riding a woman you fix your legs & move your ass.

Q: What three things are common between the sun and woman's underwear?
A: Both are hot, both look better while going down and both disappear at night.

Q: Why do men ask for a woman's hand in marriage?
A: Because they are tired of using their own.

Q: What's common between men and video?
A: Both go backward... forward... backward... forward....backward.... forward.... stop and eject.

Q: What is the closest thing similar to a woman's period?
A: Your salary, it comes once a month lasts about 5-7 days and if it doesn't come means you are in big trouble

Q: What goes in dry, comes out wet, and gives warm satisfaction?
A: A teabag.

Q: Who is a gynecologist?
A: He is the only fool on the earth who looks for problems in a place, where most people find pleasure.

Q: What is the similarity between men and rats?
A: Both keep searching for new HOLES.

Q: What's the difference between biology and sociology?
A: When the baby looks like his dad, then it is biology.
When the baby looks like neighbour, then it is sociology..

Q: What's the height of recycling?
A: Sending a sanitary napkin for dry cleaning.

* 7 qualities to be a perfect wife:

>> Beautiful,
>> Responsible
>> Energetic
>> Adorable
>> Sweet
>> Truthful and
>> Self-Organized.

>> In short, she must have good B.R.E.A.S.T. S


Doctor: You look so weak & exhausted.. Are you having 3 meals a day as I have advised?
Lady: Doctor, I thought you had said 3 males a day.

* Girl friend & boy friend go for a movie. In the dark, a mosquito enters the girl's skirt.
Guess where it would have bitten?
>> The boy's hand......

* Tarzan and the animals went to the river to take a bath.
Tarzan removed his clothes. All the animals laughed.

Tarzan asked "Why"?
The animals told him.......... .."Your tail is in the front"


>> Last but not least

>> Secret of long life...

>> Morning two eggs, evening two pegs......and night between two legs…

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Chill and Lonely

These are the typical Friday nights being at home chilling and watching TV for hours like I've never watched for years, stoning on the seat at the screen, blank all over my brain. A typical and lonely night without fun, gosh how I wish I have someone to share some intimate session or having a wild sexperience that leads to sexploration. Pretending being the nice guy in the bar or club, meeting someone new and having this sinister plan to get the juice out of the gal, or simply being curious of whats underneath the synthetic skin that a friend we know for so long but never to have the chance to touch them close and passion enough, i mean thru the means of sexploration. I've tried that once and will share when the mood swings to that vector :)

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Arrrghhh

I hope to find serenity today, all by myself hopefully trying to figure out some things that had been haunting me. Cant wait for C to come back from oversea. Guess i'll spend more time while C is around coz she may leave overseas again. Hoping there isn't any calls today to bug me.

WTF

WTF! J called me last night asking if i had dinner, then 2nd call to tell me she's going to Salsa with her frens? Why all of the sudden she tells me things like that, like I care as she dont like to share her activities before, so why now? There was a momentary silence in the phone when she told be where she wanna go, is she expecting me to say, 'can i join?' or 'wow, thats great, have fun gal'. Sometimes i feel blatantly stupid to entertain her calls.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Twisted

Many says women are a very difficult subject to comprehend, and I cant agree more as i've experienced 6 past relationships that failed, only to end up with 2 that has an indefinite journey and tangled with varying outcome.

I've met J 2 years back, she was my ex-colleague and my subordinate. I've never exepcted I would get into a relationship with her due to our profession status in the office, however we got out clubbing one fine day and things took its course from there. During the early days of our relationship, it was of a typical type, I wasn't serious that time as I know I wont end up with any outcome with her. I also learnt that she broke-up with her ex that cheated her not long after we started. There was one period she was seeing her ex whilst being with me. There isn't anything much I can do to stop her as I was very in love with her and holding the hope that she would one day accept me whole heartedly. I always felt that I was a temporary replacement deep inside me and also as a means of a kill time companion. J always made me confused of how she feels for me, for she treats me as a friend, a good friend, a lover or even an ex-bf for that means. Thats because our relationship has been on a constant roller coaster with multiple occasions of break-ups and make-ups. Usually its simple, when she breaks up with me (I mean dumped me, sometimes for another guy, sometimes incompatibility), I would have just carry on completely cut off all communications.

Just when most of our break-up periods mature to a certain level, J would usually contact me and start dating me or shall I say asking me out for dinner or lunch on a casual basis, as if we're good friends, but her actions had always kept me wonder, what is it she wanted. J usually kept the cut-off period not to prolonged for too long. Could she have been dumped by another guy or is she bored? Or is she looking for opportunities to get back together, but everytime I asked her, she always says that I'm not her type. And this is happening for the past 2 freaking years already. There is a part of me that is very fed-up and tired, whereas another part of me still foolishly awaiting for her to accept me back and wanting her to be my wife. Perhaps it is our age barrier, she is a very adventurous person and I'm rather the conservative in relationship. I knew she has been seeing many guys out there that she never share or kept away from my knowledge even as friends. Perhaps I have not earned her trust, or perhaps she wants to be another person for me.

What I need to decipher right now is that of late, we recently kinda broke off again, as I was trying very hard to please her and make her accept me. But not long after that, she started sharing with me that she had met the guy she was looking for, her perfect guy that has the exact personality liked her in a club. I was so angry and jealous! Maybe due to the fact I haven't gave up and she found someone else. She mentioned so many wonderful things about this guy, his good looks, good built, good career, got a car, condo, bla bla bla and a PR in UK. Yeah, so maybe its these qualities that I dont have with me YET! But not long after they got together, and they started in the first week, he left to UK for his job assignments. So there she is, still here perhaps lonely, started asking me to company her for lunches and dinners and even gyms. Just last night she shared with me that she has lost communication with him, but she still likes him. Damn. And I have to pretend cool about it? I don't know whether this guy exists coz all I know about him is thru her and his funny english name. Am I being treated as a temporary replacement again to kill time? Or am I being foolish again thinking there might be a chance for us to get together and even married or am I just stupid enough to even think about it.

If anyone is reading this post, please leave some comments or some advise to help me decipher this confusion. The ultimate question would be, does she still like me and wanna get back together or NOT?

Thursday, May 21, 2009

What quiz say about me

It's been a while since i wrote on this blog, not sure if anyone read it but anyway, i liked to keep it for myself. I've just turned 30 this month and the only benchmark and breakthough so far i had this year is making myself to try out gym. Hopefully my initiative will not go in vain as i hope i can meet some interesting gals there. Apart from that, reason why i'm trying out is also to rebuild myself from scratch. 

I recently read a blog and recommends a quiz to say about myself, so here are the results;

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.


I can say that almost everything mentioned is true! Except for the education part, i believe in social education more than academic.

So hey, here's the link in case anyone finds this blog and would like to try it out for yourself, it kinda gives a very good idea to understand yourself more :)


So enjoy guys/gals :)

Monday, May 4, 2009

My first Blog...

So here i am, starting my first blog after much consideration, and i wasn't very sure if i ever wanted to start one, but hey, here i am :) starting my first blog just days before my new 20's starts, i.e my big 3rd decade anniversary; yes, I'm going to be 30 soon and very soon. It seems somehow rather strange that i chose this method to write a diary, as I've never written one and post it, anyhow, this would be a very personal blog and i hope you guys out there if happens to read mine, i hope you guys will read with an open mind.

Basically, I'll just be mumbling and babbling about my life, how lousy and great it is and perhaps I'll share some story about my past relationships, of which all are failed ones so far. And yeah, after near 30 years in existence, i find myself a total failure in relationships. Perhaps its just me and my problem :). Perhaps I'm just not that romancing or passionate or sensitive type, or perhaps I'm just romantically hopeless! Well, from now onwards, i guess I'll be using this site to update my life for myself and perhaps when i looked back someday, I'll probably be able to note my benchmark or what I've achieved in life. 

Of late I've been struggling to cling back to myself, is there a true you or in life, you just pretended to be everybody's friends by being the person that people usually like. I may not have found the key to success, but i do know that the key to failure is trying to please everyone. Perhaps this gave me the insight that the key to success is perhaps pleasing the right people at the right time for the right objective. Yeah yeah, I'll be sharing my thoughts and philosophies but if you guys don't agree, hey you can always leave a comment and share with me your thoughts. Yup, I've been of late lost in my direction for both my career and relationship. It seems what I've poured so far has not gotten me the results I anticipated, I was actually devastated till now, which is why I started this blog. 

Perhaps I hope that someone out there can share their views with me on what I've done or went wrong with my life. And if you guys were wondering why 'Flower Boy', well there's the reason why I chose boy as although I may be entering my 30's, somehow I'm the sort of a Peter Pan. And as for flower, well I've been the 'flower hearted guy' when it comes to relationship, maybe due to the fact that I'm not serious in them as I'm afraid to devour too deep to get myself vulnerable or maybe perhaps I have not found my princess to share my life with. For your info, I'm a very stubborn man, however the positive part would be I could be very loyal to someone or something. Sometimes I even have the thought that being loyal might be a stupid thing for me, which in a way landed me in this situation of cosmically lost in my career and relationship. I don't know what to do anymore nor I don't know what can i think of.

if anyone think or spot some errors in my blog layout, kindly let me know as I've spent quite an amount of time setting this account, a bit tedious for me considering I'm the sort that don't really likes too much settings of this and that.

i certainly hope that I'll be able to update this blog on a regular basis, until then, I'll see you guys soon :)